2 months ago
December 3, 2011Stephen Colbert, Brian Eno, and Michael Stipe sing an acapella version of “Lean On Me” on The Colbert Report
and let the hipsters rejoice
(Source: rufustfirefly)
Have you ever wondered about the things we tell ourselves before we fall asleep? We whisper the words in the dark, telling ourselves that we’re happy, or that he’s happy, that people will change their minds. We persuade ourselves that we can live without the people who have left. Each night before we fall asleep we lie to ourselves in a desperate hope that come morning, it will all be true.
As my eyes open to the morning light, my body feels exhausted and my mind tells me to roll over and go back to sleep. But you see, it’s not the normal teenage laziness that we all experience in the morning. It’s something that makes my heart drop and my body feel so tired, that I can’t find any reason to crawl out of bed. It’s the thought of having to walk pass my mother and answer her questions, asking me if I’m okay. It’s the moments that I’m quiet around my friends for too long, resulting in them asking if something is on my mind. It’s the moments that I have to walk by you in the hallways and not even say “hello”. My self-esteem has been on a path of twist and turns, and frankly, I can’t do it anymore. I don’t want to see your face everytime I close my eyes. I don’t want to see you around the school and feel like total shit. I don’t want to remember the cute little texts that you used to send me in the morning. But the main thing that I don’t want to remember? That we weren’t even a couple.
Thanks so much emyjoelle
I cannot say that I am an expert on love, but I am constantly coming closer to its meaning.
Today’s realization: Love is the comfort that comes from knowing that there’s nothing you feel compelled to change about yourself to hold onto someone or make them like you more.
Sometimes when we like someone, we tell ourselves, “he/she will really like me when I wear this shirt / when I talk about this / when I order this food / when I lose 10 pounds / when I listen to this music…” and so on. But I think you can tell it’s love when you try to think of something you could modify about yourself and realize that in your lover’s eyes, you are a wonderful human being — and you alone are all it takes.